it's been a looooong time..

..that i've felt anything "real" for someone.. that someone meaning a guy.. i mean.. i like guys.. obviously.. to hang out with.. have fun with.. go out with.. but it usually ends there.. i don't think of them as more than that.. i mean.. it's never a deep and emotional connection.. or at least it hasn't been for some time.. if ever..

which brings me to "southern comfort".. we had our 4th date last night.. he had a nasty day at work.. so i came up with the option of watching a movie at my place.. and all of you perverts.. don't get the wrong idea! :) so he came over.. at about 7:30.. i poured him a glass of wine.. i was already drinking one with the roomie.. who, by the way.. was getting ready to go out last night as well.. we drank.. played chess.. laughed.. basically had a great time.. and at about 9.. i put the movie on.. he has work early.. so i thought he'd want to be out early as well.. yeah.. i was wrong :)

we watched the movie.. hung out a bit more... the roomie came back.. hung out some more.. and then she went to bed.. at this point it's like 1:30 am.. and i'm still waiting for my first kiss.. waiting, yes.. because i am not a move-maker.. i don't have the balls (both literally and figuratively) to take that chance.. so i just gave him all the hints in the universe.. one of which was.. ok, it's been 4 dates, why haven't you kissed me? yeah.. i'm a smoooooth talker.. and so discreet to boot!! ahahahahahaah :)

after all the wine.. all the talk.. and everything else.. we were just hanging out.. it was a bit before 2:00 am (he had to be at work in 3 and a half hours).. and i don't know.. something shifted.. seriously.. and it happened.. my first kiss with southern comfort.. and people.. when they say the best things are worth waiting for.. it's sooooooo true..

wowed,
nounou