a day in the life of..

this blog was started just for fun.. that was then.. this is now.. things have been crazy the last few months.. but i am back.. in more ways than one :)

Sunday, July 30, 2006

just me..

so no links this time.. no articles to attach to this message.. this time it's just me.. and my thoughts.. so here are a list of questions on my mind right now:

1. this whole security council deal.. i mean.. how can it ever work if the five permanent members have to agree on something for it to pass.. the us will always ally itself with israel.. so how will that ever work in this situation??
2. does israel really believe what it says?
3. do the israeli people really think that the lebanese civilian population deserves this and more (according to a recent poll on cnn, 91% of israelis think that the israelis need to be MORE aggressive)
4. how will this end.. and when.. and more importantly.. after this 48-hour cessation of violence goes by.. then what.. do they make up for lost time??
5. why does no one listen to kofi annan.. wasn't he placed in this position for a reason??
6. how can the international community ALL condemn this but not be able to do anything only because the US doesn't agree.. doesn't "majority rule" apply here??
7. i have an appointment at the US embassy this friday.. how is that going to go.. a Lebanese passport always raised eyebrows.. but now.. yeah.. i'm concerned..
8. is pinky going to get back to normal one of these days? she's been in a funk for a few weeks now.. (i'm not even going to link to her blog since she hasn't written in a billion years.. yeah.. THAT long.. i'm not exxagerating!)
9. that screenplay the roomie and i were going to start working on.. about a Lebanese family moving to Australia during the civil war.. how much more relevant is the issue of displaced Lebanese now??
10. in a few weeks, i'll be having a talk with southern comfort.. what's he going to say? what am i going to say? what do i want to hear.. actually.. no, i know what i want to hear.. and you know.. as much as i am preparing myself to hear whatever i may hear.. the real deal is once the words are said.. then what?
11. how can i fix a friendship that seems to be beyond repair? i have done all i can.. or i think i have at least.. so the ball is in his court.. and how can i be patient?
12. what if things at the US embassy don't go well on friday.. yes, i have my approval.. but it seems that they have a say in things as well.. weird, no??
13. how can i help my peeps in Lebanon by sitting here in mexico city and then hopefully in a few weeks, in la?

that's my brain right now.. all jumbled up.. but this is my blog afterall.. so my words do need to come out once in awhile.. i feel like it's been forever since i really wrote.. 19 days.. that's how long this has been going on.. 19 days too long..

nounou

i might be psychic..

Qana.. again.. 56 civilians.. 34 of which were children.. click here for more details.. i swear it's as if i'm psychic!! Just yesterday i wrote about Qana in 1996.. here we are again..

Friday, July 28, 2006

Qana, Lebanon - April 18, 1996

(this was literally copy/pasted from www.bbc.co.uk)

At talks in Rome on Wednesday, the US, UK and regional powers urged peace be sought with the "utmost urgency", but stopped short of calling for an immediate truce.

That prompted Mr Ramon to declare Israel had received "permission from the world... to continue the operation".

But questioned by reporters on the sidelines of a summit in Kuala Lumpur, Mr Ereli said: "Any such statement is outrageous." (my comment here: "outrageous" you say?? i don't think it could have been any more clear than that)

But the BBC's world affairs correspondent, Nick Childs, points out that Mr Bush also emphasised how troubled he was by the mounting casualties, a suggestion - perhaps - that he is increasingly conscious of the price Washington is paying for its closeness to Israel.

He says this public disavowal of the Israeli stance shows how much of an embarrassment it was for Washington as it struggles with conflicting diplomatic pressures and the frustrations of many of its allies.
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now if only his actions would match his words.. wake up world.. no.. sorry.. wake up US and UK governments.. listen to your people for a change.. i can only speak for myself.. so i agree with most of my friends that say the US should not get involved (in terms of sending troops).. but by not getting involved, that means that they also cannot block security council motions for a cease-fire.. seriously.. did you see what happened with the UN officials that were killed?? Yeah.. the drafted document was not allowed to "allude" to the idea that it might have been deliberate or to even suggest that an international force look into what happened (one more point for G.B.).. Israel says that bombing UN headquarters is not part of their "strategy" and that they have never done anything like this to suggest that it was deliberate.. Oh no?? How fast the world forgets.. do your own search.. Qana, Lebanon - April 18, 1996.. what do you see?? Here's a snipit of a simple google search i just ran..

"On April 18, 1996 to be exact, 155 mm Israeli shells donated by Uncle Sam rained down on Lebanese men, women, and children taking refuge in a UN peace-keeping compound in Qana, southern Lebanon, to escape Israeli air, sea, and land bombardment of their towns and villages, and as a result, the bodies of 102 Arab civilians were shattered to pieces.

Leading up to the Qana massacre, 17 villages had been flattened, over a half million people had been rendered homeless, more than 200 had been murdered, and hundreds were wounded, in what was named as operation "Grapes of Wrath". Israeli Prime Minister Peres, who was granted the Nobel Prize for Peace, ordered the bombing blitz. The entire world, with the exception of the White House, condemned this barbaric attack conducted intentionally against defenseless civilians."

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sounds eerily familiar no??

nounou..

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

in the words of Pat Buchanan..

hey everyone.. below is the link to a poll being taken on cnn (right now it's 50-50) regarding israeli military action being justified in Lebanon.. obviously, i voted no.. and i would hope that you would do the same..

http://www.cnn.com/2006/WORLD/meast/07/14/mideast/index.html

other than that.. today follows another intense day of fighting in Lebanon.. i received an e-mail.. which i am copying and pasting below.. this was written by Pat Buchanan:
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Posted: July 18, 2006

Where are the Christians?
1:00 a.m. Eastern

Pat Buchanan
2006 Creators Syndicate Inc.

When Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert unleashed his navy and air force on Lebanon, accusing that tiny nation of an "act of war," the last pillar of Bush's Middle East policy collapsed.

First came capitulation on the Bush Doctrine, as Pyongyang and Tehran defied Bush's dictum: The world's worst regimes will not be allowed to acquire the world's worst weapons. Then came suspension of the democracy crusade as Islamic militants exploited free elections to advance to power and office in Egypt, Lebanon, Gaza, the West Bank, Iraq and Iran.

Now, Israel's rampage against a defenseless Lebanon smashing airport runways, fuel tanks, power plants, gas stations, lighthouses, bridges, roads and the occasional refugee convoy has exposed Bush's folly in subcontracting U.S. policy out to Tel Aviv, thus making Israel the custodian of our reputation and interests in the Middle East.

The Lebanon that Israel, with Bush's blessing, is smashing up has a pro-American government, heretofore considered a shining example of his democracy crusade. Yet, asked in St. Petersburg if he would urge Israel to use restraint in its airstrikes, Bush sounded less like the leader of the Free World than some bellicose city councilman from Brooklyn Heights.

What Israel is up to was described by its army chief of staff, Lt. Gen. Dan Halutz, when he threatened to "turn back the clock in Lebanon 20 years."

Olmert seized upon Hezbollah's capture of two Israeli soldiers to unleash the IDF in a pre-planned attack to make the Lebanese people suffer until the Lebanese government disarms Hezbollah, a task the Israeli army could not accomplish in 18 years of occupation.

Israel is doing the same to the Palestinians. To punish these people for the crime of electing Hamas, Olmert imposed an economic blockade of Gaza and the West Bank and withheld the $50 million in monthly tax and customs receipts due the Palestinians.

Then, Israel instructed the United States to terminate all aid to the Palestinian Authority, though Bush himself had called for the elections and for the participation of Hamas. Our Crawford cowboy meekly complied.

The predictable result: Fatah and Hamas fell to fratricidal fighting, and Hamas militants began launching Qassam rockets over the fence from Gaza into Israel. Hamas then tunneled into Israel, killed two soldiers, captured one, took him back into Gaza and demanded a prisoner exchange.

Israel's response was to abduct half of the Palestinian cabinet and parliament and blow up a $50 million U.S.-insured power plant. That cut off electricity for half a million Palestinians. Their food spoiled, their water could not be purified, and their families sweltered in the summer heat of the Gaza desert. One family of seven was wiped out on a beach by what the IDF assures us was an errant artillery shell.

Let it be said: Israel has a right to defend herself, a right to counter-attack against Hezbollah and Hamas, a right to clean out bases from which Katyusha or Qassam rockets are being fired and a right to occupy land from which attacks are mounted on her people.

But what Israel is doing is imposing deliberate suffering on civilians, collective punishment on innocent people, to force them to do something they are powerless to do: disarm the gunmen among them. Such a policy violates international law and comports neither with our values nor our interests. It is un-American and un-Christian.

But where are the Christians? Why is Pope Benedict virtually alone among Christian leaders to have spoken out against what is being done to Lebanese Christians and Muslims?

When al-Qaida captured two U.S. soldiers and barbarically butchered them, the U.S. Army did not smash power plants across the Sunni Triangle. Why then is Bush not only silent but openly supportive when Israelis do this?

Democrats attack Bush for crimes of which he is not guilty, including Haditha and Abu Ghraib. Why are they, too, silent when Israel pursues a conscious policy of collective punishment of innocent peoples?

Britain's diplomatic goal in two world wars was to bring the naive cousins in, to "pull their chestnuts out of the fire." Israel and her paid and pro-bono agents here appear determined to expand the Iraq war into Syria and Iran, and have America fight and finish all of Israel's enemies.

That Tel Aviv is maneuvering us to fight its wars is understandable. That Americans are ignorant of, or complicit in this, is deplorable.

Already, Bush is ranting about Syria being behind the Hezbollah capture of the Israeli soldiers. But where is the proof?

Who is whispering in his ear? The same people who told him Iraq was maybe months away from an atom bomb, that an invasion would be a "cakewalk," that he would be Churchill, that U.S. troops would be greeted with candy and flowers, that democracy would break out across the region, that Palestinians and Israelis would then sit down and make peace?

How much must America pay for the education of this man?
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i will end this here.. again.. there is nothing i can say that would sound half as good as that..

nounou for Lebanon!

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

staying on - Faerlie Wilson

Below are the words of Faerlie Wilson.. a US citizen, originally from California that has decided to stay in Beirut.. here's why..


Staying On
Why I'm not evacuating Beirut. By Faerlie Wilson
Updated Friday, July 21, 2006, at 2:36 PM ET

BEIRUT, Lebanon—From my balcony this afternoon, I watched as French, British, and American evacuees boarded chartered cruise ships in Beirut's port about a half-mile west of my apartment.
And over the last few days, while bombs and artillery pummeled the southern part of the city, I made the decision not to leave Lebanon. Explosions rock my building even as I write this, but I'm staying put.
I'm not crazy, and I harbor no death wish. This is simply the rational decision of someone who has built a life in Lebanon, who believes in this place and its ability to bounce back. I choose to bet on Beirut.
After five visits to Lebanon over as many years, I moved to Beirut from California this February. I'm a 24-year-old American with friends but no family here. But Lebanese hospitality makes it easy to feel at home; it's a warm society that exudes and embodies a sense of interpersonal responsibility. Live here for two weeks and then go out of town, and you'll get a dozen offers to pick you up at the airport upon your return.
So although I'm not Lebanese by blood, I have become Beiruti. There are plenty of us who fit that description, foreigners who fell in love with the place and its people. One friend, an American college student interning for the summer with a member of the Lebanese parliament, called in tears en route to the northern border to tell me her parents had forced her to leave.
"I'm going to stay in Syria as long as I can," she vowed. "In case things settle down and I can come back."
Until the war broke out last week, this was to be Lebanon's golden summer—last year's tourist season having been dampened by the brutal car bomb that killed former Prime Minister Rafik Hariri in February 2005.
This summer started off strong, with concerts by major Western artists that allowed the Lebanese to hope their country was returning to the prewar days when everyone who was anyone—icons like Ella Fitzgerald, Marlon Brando, and Brigitte Bardot—made regular stops in the country. Ricky Martin and 50 Cent performed in May and June, respectively, Sean Paul was on deck for July, and negotiations were under way to bring Snoop Dogg later in the summer. But the most anticipated concert was set for late July: the three-night return of legendary Lebanese diva Fairouz to the Baalbeck festival, where she first earned her fame in the 1950s and '60s.
The after-party for 50 Cent was typical over-the-top Beiruti, held at city's most decadent nightclub, Crystal. Lamborghinis and Ferraris crowded the parking lot; plasticated Lebanese girls in short skirts and spike heels danced on tables as waiters navigated the dance floor balancing trays laden with sparklers and magnums of champagne for high-rolling Saudi tourists, while Fiddy free-styled and openly smoked a joint.
Tourists from the Arab world, Europe, and North America flooded the streets of cities and villages throughout the country. Gulf Arabs in particular have been drawn to Lebanon, especially in a post-9/11 era when they felt unwelcome in the West (and often had trouble obtaining visas). Lebanon offered many of the same attractions as Europe, but in an Arab setting: temperate climate, good shopping, plenty of tourist activities, and most important, heady nightlife and a liberal social atmosphere. Tourists partied till dawn, stormed the sales at Beirut's designer boutiques, and visited sites like Lebanon's ancient cedar groves and the Roman temples at Baalbeck.
Now those magnificent ruins are surrounded by newer ones: The city of Baalbeck, long a Shiite stronghold, has received a heavy share of the Israeli bombardment.
Falling bombs erase entire villages, fire and smoke cover the horizon, and visions of that promised summer have, in just over a week, evaporated. On the beaches of Damour and Jiyeh, the foreign visitors aren't European sun junkies but Israeli missiles. And the cruise ships docked in the port aren't bringing tourists to Lebanon, they're taking them away.
The contrast between Beirut today and Beirut two weeks ago is so stark, it would be unbearable if it weren't so surreal. This isn't my Beirut. This isn't anyone's Beirut. The frantic, vibrant city has shrunk into a sleepy town, with empty streets and only a handful of restaurants, bars, and shops open for business.
It's amazing how quickly you can get used to living under siege. We've taped our windows, stocked up on supplies, and settled into a perversion of normal life. Electric generators succeed where embattled power stations fail. I've learned what times the electricity, water, and Internet connection usually cut out, and I plan my days accordingly—an old Lebanese ritual from the days of the civil wars.
Candles we bought as decoration are scattered throughout the apartment, half-burned down from long nights without electricity. An Israeli propaganda flier dropped on a university soccer field sticks out of my roommate's copy of the now-obsolete July issue of Time Out Beirut, marking a page listing exhibitions at art galleries that have since boarded up their doors. The magazine only launched this spring, and it was easy to see it as yet another symbol that Beirut was finally being recognized as one of the world's great cities. Travel and Leisure magazine listed Beirut as the ninth-best city in the world for 2006. In this part of the world, fortunes shift very quickly.
Smaller explosions and the rushing of Israeli fighter jets overhead don't startle or frighten me anymore. We are exhausted and have to save our emotional energy for the moments where panic is needed. Still, when larger blasts rattle my windowpanes and make the apartment shudder, I rush to the balcony to figure out which part of my city is being hit. Sometimes, it's an easy game: Three days ago, my roommate and I watched as Israeli warships struck Beirut's port.
I know I'm reasonably safe in my corner of Beirut, and I have a place to go in the mountains if that ceases to be true. Unlike people in many other industries, I still have a job: The magazine where I work decided to publish an August issue—although it will lose money—as a sign of resistance and resilience.
There is painfully little we, the ordinary people of Lebanon, can do to help the situation. So, instead, we do what we can to help each other by donating food and supplies, opening our doors to friends and strangers, and trying to maintain some semblance of normalcy. We aren't giving up.
After the foreigners are gone, local wisdom predicts that the fighting will only get worse. At the very least, there will be less protective padding—a fear of foreign casualties that may have restrained Israel to some degree. Evacuating Beirut would feel a lot like abandoning it. I know that my staying won't keep the Israelis from intensifying their attacks, but at least I won't be complicit, seeing events unfold on a TV screen from the comfort of Cyprus.
So, I'll watch those ships pull away without regret. Lebanon has given me more than I ever could've asked: a home, a sense of belonging, an almost indecent number of happy memories. But aside from any debt to Lebanon, I won't leave because I know how miserable I would be watching the war ravage my country from the outside. As long as my feet are firmly planted on Lebanese soil, I somehow know the country will survive.
People ask me if I'm scared, and I am—but for Lebanon more than for myself. This place and its people deserve far better than what they're getting.
There's a sad, unstated "what will become of us?" question floating around the Lebanese who are left behind. I need to stay here, if only to learn the answer.
http://www.slate.com/id/2146306/

thank you Faerlie for your strength and belief in a country when others are looking away..

nounou

Monday, July 24, 2006

it's been 12 days..

it's been 12 days and "condi" finally got on a plane and went to the middle east.. it took her 12 days to show up and say nothing substantial.. 12 days.. that's how long it took for the US to send a "senior official" over.. and with no plan at the end of the day.. yeah.. ok, give back the soldiers and it will all be over.. who are we kidding here.. as if this was ever about the soldiers.. that was the excuse.. and we are paying.. with the destruction of our bridges, tunnels, roads.. airport.. and most importantly.. the loss of life.. and for what? 2 soldiers?? does anyone out there really believe that.. israel has already lost 19 soldiers (at the latest count vs. the 370+ lebanese civilians).. did their lives not matter?? who are these 2 soldiers that a whole country can be sacrificed for them?? it's a joke.. cruel and sick.. but a joke nonetheless..

so 12 days.. that's how long it took to send someone to Lebanon.. a few weeks ago.. the pride and joy of democracy in the middle east.. but now.. well, not so much, right? so.. 12 days.. here's what 12 days mean to the average person:
1. 288 hours (96 of which might have been spent sleeping)
2. two weekends.. (6-8 drinks for the conservative party-er)
3. 10 days of work
4. you could have gotten a cold and gotten over it
5. mani / pedi
6. grocery shopping.. probably 3-4 times
7. a weekend get-away

this list is just to show you that 12 days is not a short amount of time.. and in that time, the world has just stood by and watched a sovereign country be torn to shreds.. i know it's easier to look away.. but it's not human nature.. how can anyone stand by and watch this happen.. i know that i am speaking right now because i am Lebanese.. and this is my country.. and this is obviously not the first time something horrible is happening and people are just standing by.. but as i said.. this is MY country we are talking about.. so i am involved.. and hopefully, if you are reading this.. maybe you will be too..

here's a snipit from another girl's blog.. the link is below and here are her words.. she does this much better than i do..

http://www.frombeirutwithlove.blogspot.com/

"I ask myself if I could evacuate would I? Or would my sense of pride never allow me to leave….pride? what pride?....it is a strange word to use….you are screwed if you stay and screwed if you go….if you stay…you might die…ok…simple…if you leave…I know this feeling…I have felt it and it is so much worse than living this madness…when something happens in Lebanon and you are overseas….that feeling of helplessness….the feeling of despair and being useless…the constant thinking of family and friends…and then…comes the feeling of guilt….because you are safe but Lebanon isn’t. So this time I find myself here…in Beirut, Lebanon …it is bittersweet…because it is an easier feeling…and I would rather be here than sitting in front of some computer somewhere in Kingston, Canada…I feel the people overseas who really care about Lebanon are now going through hell…. a worse kind of hell…."

you couldn't have said it better Rena..

nounou.. watching, listening, reading and worrying.. from mexico city

Sunday, July 23, 2006

i have the luxury of taking a break..

everyone in beirut, does not.. most of my college friends and my entire family (minus my parents and brother) can't just forget about what's going on and live their life.. but i can.. because i am all the way over here.. in mexico city at the moment.. and i have no idea how i can help.. but to share their stories with the rest of my readers.. i am still shocked and repulsed by the international sphere's reaction here.. and let me be fair.. it is not the international reaction really.. because that is on Lebanon's side.. it's the fact that 3 countries have sooooo much power over what happens.. namely, the US, the UK and Israel.. isn't that just perfect?? yeah.. kind of makes you think where interests lie no? regardless.. i am not here to blame countries.. but i will blame their governments.. i have friends in israel that don't agree with what's going on.. that see it differently.. but those are not the voices you will ever hear.. below, again are some links i think you would find useful.. any help you can give Lebanon is HIGHLY appreciated..

http://www.beirutupdate.blogspot.com/ (my friend zena's blog.. also linked to from The Guardian)

and below are SOME of the blogs she also has mentioned on her site that i think are awesome and give this whole "evilness" a human voice..
http://hopefulbeirut.blogspot.com/
http://littlepaperboat.livejournal.com/

again.. i cannot believe what is happening, while i am in mexico city, i am update on whatever the Lebanese community is doing over here (peace march last week for instance).. and as soon as i get back to LA, i will do what i can.. in the meantime though.. my lebanese friends / family.. keep strong.. you are our inspiration.. and we, no matter where we are.. will get through this..

believing in peace,
nounou

Saturday, July 22, 2006

my bbf!!!

yes people.. it's the bbf's birthday today!! happy happy happy birthday bbf/pinky/shitty/d/didi/trophy friend.. today she turns 30.. yeah.. the big 3 0!! and she is at this moment celebrating it in grand style somewhere in manhattan.. with 25-35 of her closest people.. most of which constitute her fan club.. you know who you are! :)

so.. what can i tell you about her? well.. where to start.. d and i met when she was 9 years old and i was 8.. it's been a love/hate relationship since then.. she offered me gum, i already had some so i was like.. "step off b*tch!".. ok, maybe not in those words.. but she got me back.. oh yes she did.. below please find the d list:

favorite sentences:
1. it's not fair
2. but why?????
3. get the f*ck out of my way you mother f*cker piece of sh*t (usually said when she's zooming through the streets of manhattan on her blades)
4. nounou, why can't you try to understand me?? (because i'm a robot!)
5. you two are always ganging up against me (usually about me and my 1/3)
6. oh please, like he can get better than me??
7. nounou, will you marry me?? (AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA)

what NOT to wear around d:
1. tube tops.. she will.. and she has pulled them down.. trust me, ask anyone that was in the gaslamp last year during memorial day weekend..
2. skirts.. she will and has pulled them up.. one of my traumas as a teenager!! you're welcome everyone on 57th street in 1993!!!

what NOT to do around d:
1. whatever you do, don't make her laugh too much.. she won't make it to the bathroom.. and if you think i'm kidding.. believe me, i learned the hard way..
2. eat fast food..
3. eat WHITE bread..

I could go on and on with the list.. but the fact is this.. we have been in each other's lives for over 20 years.. yeah.. 20 years.. i don't consider her just my bbf.. she is a part of my life.. the part that has crazy ass sicknesses and diseases that no one has ever heard of.. but still a part.. ahahahahah.. i'm just kidding.. in reality though.. d is awesome.. she is, by far, the most entertaining person i know.. it's like being friends with 20 different people at once.. she laughs.. she cries.. she is confident.. she feels insecure.. she goes through the range of emotions all within a day.. and there are times.. you just step back thinking.. "is she for real".. the thing is.. i think she is.. if this is a role d is playing.. she deserves an award.. because she has never faltered.. she is true.. she is who she is.. and she is finally learning NOT to apologize for it.. and nothing could make me happier..

She's my trophy friend.. i take her out and show her off.. she's hot stuff.. and i will get her to really believe that one day.. she's getting there.. slowly but surely.. she gets knocked down more than anyone i know.. because she puts herself out there.. 1000% every single time.. she says she's scared.. but i don't know anyone more fearless than her.. she gambles with her heart.. more than anyone i know.. but you know what.. at the end of the day.. if she's been "broken" and after a few thousand tears.. she wipes her eyes.. and slowly starts putting herself together again.. and the person she becomes is always better and stronger than the one she is leaving behind.. and for that.. i am sticking around.. she is awesome already.. and she will just keep getting better.. i have faith in d.. but unfortunately, i won't be able to talk to her again till april 18th, 2007.. yeah.. that's the rule.. she's too old to talk to people like me.. ahahahhhahahah :)

love you dddddddddddd.. happy birfday.. can't wait to hear about last night (the parts you remember at least!).. ahahahahahaha..

bbf nounou

Friday, July 21, 2006

brofo..

so yes, the situation in lebanon is getting worse by the day.. and i promise that i will get back to my views on that.. but for now.. for this weekend, i'm taking a break.. it's brofo's birthday y'allllllllllll.. and not only his.. but pinky's as well!!!!!!!!! so yeah.. in my world.. it's a big weekend yo.. but this one is for brofo.. d gets hers later :)

about brofo.. where to start?? hmm.. well, he is the most important person in the world to me.. yeah.. it all started when he was born.. we're a year and 3 months apart.. and to ensure that we'd get along.. my mom told me he was my baby.. and i took her seriously.. i guess i still do.. "baby tital".. ahahahhaha.. how cute.. :)

so.. who is brofo?? well.. he is someone that knows where he stands.. on any issue.. give him a topic, and he will give you his take.. whether or not you agree with it.. he knows his sh*t.. so don't mess with him unless you are prepared for the most intellectual argument you can imagine.. and the best part is.. he's always been this way.. in the sense of being sure of his views.. when he was just a little curly haired blond boy.. my dad must have said something he didn't quite agree with.. his response "you you you you stupid".. yeah.. a bit of a stutter there.. ahahahahahaha :)

other than that.. brofo is simply awesome.. he's kind.. he's funny.. he's sensitive.. he's unique.. he's a "maniac".. all in all.. i couldn't be more proud of the man he is today.. man.. oh my god.. it's crazy.. but numbers don't lie.. "baby tital" is growing up.. it seems like just yesterday that he would prank call domino's.. having them send pizzas to our neighbors' houses while him and his friends used to watch.. laughing the whole way through.. that's where he got the name "pizza boy" from.. or the time that he gave our elementary school principal the finger (italian style) behind her back.. did i mention she was a nun?? ahaahahaha.. she wasn't nice though.. so i helped him in getting my mom's signature on the bottom of a blank piece of paper.. which we later filled out saying things like:
My son informed me of what happened in the cafeteria today and i am very sorry for his behavior"








lots of blank space.. and then mama's signature.. we didn't get away with it though.. that evil nun called my mom the next day to talk to her about it.. goo mama though.. for pretending that she did sign that paper knowing what was written.. we stick together in this family.. ahahahahahah :)

that was brofo then.. now he's using his charms to get his way in his personal and professional life.. he's got his bachelor pad.. he's got his ladies.. he's got his job.. and he's got every single opportunity right in front of him.. and i have no doubt that he will seize whatever comes his way.. that's just how he is.. he's my brofo.. and i am his sispiss (there's no story behind that name.. d and him liked it because it rhymed.. i swear!!)

love you brofooooooo.. happy happy 28th birthday!!!!
sispiss :)

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Paradise Lost - Robert Fisk

Paradise Lost Robert Fisk 19 July 2006

The Independent ROBERT FISK'S ELEGY FOR BEIRUT Elegant buildings lie in ruins. The heady scent of gardenias gives way to the acrid stench of bombed-out oil installations. And everywhere terrified people are scrambling to get out of a city that seems tragically doomed to chaos and destruction. As Beirut - 'the Paris of the East' - is defiled yet again, Robert Fisk, a resident for 30 years, asks: how much more punishment can it take?

In the year 551, the magnificent, wealthy city of Berytus-headquarters of the imperial East Mediterranean Roman fleet - was struck by a massive earthquake. In its after math, these a with drew several miles and the survivors - ancestors of the present-day Lebanese - walked out on the sands to loot the long-sunken merchant ships revealed in front of them.

That was when a tidal wall higher than a tsunami returned to swamp the city and kill them all. So savagely was the old Beirut damaged that the Emperor Justinian sent gold from Constantinople as compensation to every family left alive. Some cities seem forever doomed. When the Crusaders arrived at Beirut on their way to Jerusalem in the 11th century, they slaughtered every man, woman and child in the city. In the First World War, Ottoman Beirut suffered a terrible famine' the Turkish army had commandeered all the grain and the Allied powers blockaded the coast. I still have some ancient postcards I bought here 30 years ago of stick-like children standing in an orphanage, naked and abandoned.

An American woman living in Beirut in 1916 described how she "passed women and children lying by the roadside with closed eyes and ghastly, pale faces. It was a common thing to find people searching the garbage heaps for orange peel, old bones or other refuse, and eating them greedily when found. Everywhere women could be seen seeking eatable weeds among the grass along the roads..."

How does this happen to Beirut? For 30 years, I've watched this place die and then rise from the grave and then die again, its apartment blocks pitted with so many bullets they looked like Irish lace, its people massacring each other.

I lived here through 15 years of civil war that took 150,000 lives, and two Israeli invasions and years of Israeli bombardments that cost the lives of a further 20,000 of its people. I have seen them armless, legless, headless, knifed, bombed and splashed across the walls of houses. Yet they are a fine, educated, moral people whose generosity amazes every foreigner, whose gentleness puts any Westerner to shame, and whose suffering we almost always ignore.

They look like us, the people of Beirut. They have light-coloured skin and speak beautiful English and French. They travel the world. Their women are gorgeous and their food exquisite. But what are we saying of their fate today as the Israelis - in some of their cruellest attacks on this city and the surrounding countryside - tear them from their homes, bomb them on river bridges, cut them off from food and water and electricity? We say that they started this latest war, and we compare their appalling casualties - 240 in all of Lebanon by last night - with Israel's 24 dead, as if the figures are the same.

And then, most disgraceful of all, we leave the Lebanese to their fate like a diseased people and spend our time evacuating our precious foreigners while tut-tutting about Israel's "disproportionate" response to the capture of its soldiers by Hizbollah.

I walked through the deserted city centre of Beirut yesterday and it reminded more than ever of a film lot, a place of dreams too beautiful to last, a phoenix from the ashes of civil war whose plumage was so brightly coloured that it blinded its own people. This part of the city - once a Dresden of ruins - was rebuilt by Rafiq Hariri, the prime minister who was murdered scarcely a mile away on 14 February last year.

The wreckage of that bomb blast, an awful precursor to the present war in which his inheritance is being vandalised by the Israelis, still stands beside the Mediterranean, waiting for the last UN investigator to look for clues to the assassination - an investigator who has long ago abandoned this besieged city for the safety of Cyprus.

At the empty Etoile restaurant - best snails and cappuccino in Beirut, where Hariri once dined Jacques Chirac - I sat on the pavement and watched the parliamentary guard still patrolling the façade of the French-built emporium that houses what is left of Lebanon's democracy. So many of these streets were built by Parisians under the French mandate and they have been exquisitely restored, their mock Arabian doorways bejewelled with marble Roman columns dug from the ancient Via Maxima a few metres away.

Hariri loved this place and, taking Chirac for a beer one day, he caught sight of me sitting at a table. "Ah Robert, come over here," he roared and then turned to Chirac like a cat that was about to eat a canary. "I want to introduce you, Jacques, to the reporter who said I couldn't rebuild Beirut!"

And now it is being un-built. The Martyr Rafiq Hariri International Airport has been attacked three times by the Israelis, its glistening halls and shopping malls vibrating to the missiles that thunder into the runways and fuel depots. Hariri's wonderful transnational highway viaduct has been broken by Israeli bombers. Most of his motorway bridges have been destroyed. The Roman-style lighthouse has been smashed by a missile from an Apache helicopter. Only this small jewel of a restaurant in the centre of Beirut has been spared. So far.

It is the slums of Haret Hreik and Ghobeiri and Shiyah that have been levelled and "rub-ble-ised" and pounded to dust, sending a quarter of a million Shia Muslims to seek sanctuary in schools and abandoned parks across the city. Here, indeed, was the headquarters of Hizbollah, another of those "centres of world terror" which the West keeps discovering in Muslim lands. Here lived Sayed Hassan Nasrallah, the Party of God's leader, a ruthless, caustic, calculating man' and Sayad Mohamed Fadlallah, among the wisest and most eloquent of clerics' and many of Hizbollah's top military planners - including, no doubt, the men who planned over many months the capture of the two Israeli soldiers last Wednesday.

But did the tens of thousands of poor who live here deserve this act of mass punishment? For a country that boasts of its pin-point accuracy - a doubtful notion in any case, but that's not the issue - what does this act of destruction tell us about Israel? Or about ourselves?

In a modern building in an undamaged part of Beirut, I come, quite by chance, across a well known and prominent Hizbollah figure, open-neck white shirt, dark suit, clean shoes. "We will go on if we have to for days or weeks or months or..." And he counts these awful statistics off on the fingers of his left hand. "Believe me, we have bigger surprises still to come for the Israelis - much bigger, you will see. Then we will get our prisoners and it will take just a few small concessions."

I walk outside, feeling as if I have been beaten over the head. Over the wall opposite there is purple bougainvillaea and white jasmine and a swamp of gardenias. The Lebanese love flowers, their colour and scent, and Beirut is draped in trees and bushes that smell like paradise.

As for the huddled masses southern slums of Haret Hreik, I found hundreds of them yesterday, sitting under trees and lying on the parched grass beside an ancient fountain donated to the city of Beirut by the Ottoman Sultan Abdul-Hamid. How empires fall.

Far away, across the Mediterranean, two American helicopters from the USS Iwo Jima could be seen, heading through the mist and smoke towards the US embassy bunker complex at Awkar to evacuate more citizens of the American Empire. There was not a word from that same empire to help the people lying in the park, to offer them food or medical aid.

And across them all has spread a dark grey smoke that works its way through the entire city, the fires of oil terminals and burning buildings turning into a cocktail of sulphurous air that moves below our doors and through our windows. I smell it when I wake in the morning. Half the people of Beirut are coughing in this filth, breathing their own destruction as they contemplate their dead.

The anger that any human soul should feel at such suffering and loss was expressed so well by Lebanon's greatest poet, the mystic Khalil Gibran, when he wrote of the half million Lebanese who died in the 1916 famine, most of them residents of Beirut:
My people died of hunger, and he who
Did not perish from starvation was
Butchered with the sword'
They perished from hunger In a land rich with milk and honey. They died because the vipers and
Sons of vipers spat out poison into
The space where the Holy Cedars and
The roses and the jasmine breathe
Their fragrance.

And the sword continues to cut its way through Beirut. When part of an aircraft - perhaps the wing-tip of an F-16 hit by a missile, although the Israelis deny this - came streaking out of the sky over the eastern suburbs at the weekend, I raced to the scene to find a partly decapitated driver in his car and three Lebanese soldiers from the army's logistics unit. These are the tough, brave non-combat soldiers of Kfar Chim, who have been mending power and water lines these past six days to keep Beirut alive.

I knew one of them. "Hello Robert, be quick because I think the Israelis will bomb again but we'll show you everything we can." And they took me through the fires to show me what they could of the wreckage, standing around me to protect me.

And a few hours later, the Israelis did come back, as the men of the small logistics unit were going to bed, and they bombed the barracks and killed 10 soldiers, including those three kind men who looked after me amid the fires of Kfar Chim.

And why? Be sure - the Israelis know what they are hitting. That's why they killed nine soldiers near Tripoli when they bombed the military radio antennas. But a logistics unit? Men whose sole job was to mend electricity lines? And then it dawns on me. Beirut is to die. It is to be starved of electricity now that the power station in Jiyeh is on fire. No one is to be allowed to keep Beirut alive. So those poor men had to be liquidated.

Beirutis are tough people and are not easily moved. But at the end of last week, many of them were overcome by a photograph in their daily papers of a small girl, discarded like a broken flower in a field near Ter Harfa, her feet curled up, her hand resting on her torn blue pyjamas, her eyes - beneath long, soft hair - closed, turned away from the camera. She had been another "terrorist" target of Israel and several people, myself among them, saw a frightening similarity between this picture and the photograph of a Polish girl lying dead in a field beside her weeping sister in 1939.

I go home and flick through my files, old pictures of the Israeli invasion of 1982. There are more photographs of dead children, of broken bridges. "Israelis Threaten to Storm Beirut", says one headline. "Israelis Retaliate". "Lebanon At War". "Beirut Under Siege". "Massacre at Sabra and Chatila".

Yes, how easily we forget these earlier slaughters. Up to 1,700 Palestinians were butchered at Sabra and Chatila by Israel's proxy Christian militia allies in September of 1982 while Israeli troops - as they later testified to Israel's own court of inquiry - watched the killings. I was there. I stopped counting the corpses when I reached 100. Many of the women had been raped before being knifed or shot.

Yet when I was fleeing the bombing of Ghobeiri with my driver Abed last week, we swept right past the entrance of the camp, the very spot where I saw the first murdered Palestinians. And we did not think of them. We did not remember them. They were dead in Beirut and we were trying to stay alive in Beirut, as I have been trying to stay alive here for 30 years.

I am back on the sea coast when my mobile phone rings. It is an Israeli woman calling me from the United States, the author of a fine novel about the Palestinians. "Robert, please take care," she says. "I am so, so sorry about what is being done to the Lebanese. It is unforgivable. I pray for the Lebanese people, and the Palestinians, and the Israelis." I thank her for her thoughtfulness and the graceful, generous way she condemned this slaughter.

Then, on my balcony - a glance to check the location of the Israeli gunboat far out in the sea-smog - I find older clippings. This is from an English paper in 1840, when Beirut was a great Ottoman city. "Beyrouth" was the dateline. "Anarchy is now the order of the day, our properties and personal safety are endangered, no satisfaction can be obtained, and crimes are committed with impunity. Several Europeans have quitted their houses and suspended their affairs, in order to find protection in more peaceable countries."

On my dining-room wall, I remember, there is a hand-painted lithograph of French troops arriving in Beirut in 1842 to protect the Christian Maronites from the Druze. They are camping in the Jardin des Pins, which will later become the site of the French embassy where, only a few hours ago, I saw French men and women registering for their evacuation. And outside the window, I hear again the whisper of Israeli jets, hidden behind the smoke that now drifts 20 miles out to sea.

Fairouz, the most popular of Lebanese singers, was to have performed at this year's Baalbek festival, cancelled now like all Lebanon's festivals of music, dance, theatre and painting. One of her most popular songs is dedicated to her native city:
To Beirut - peace to Beirut with all my heart
And kisses - to the sea and clouds,
To the rock of a city that looks like an old sailor's face.
From the soul of her people she makes wine,
From their sweat, she makes bread and jasmine.
So how did it come to taste of smoke and fire?

'Disgracefully, we evacuate our precious foreigners and just leave the Lebanese to their fate'
----

My words cannot compare to those of Fisk.. so once again, thank you Robert, if only others could read your words. Also, i am going to post my friend's website as well since she is still in Beirut (they were supposed to have a peace march today)
http://www.beirutupdate.blogspot.com/

I still cannot believe what i am seeing..
nounou

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

7 days and counting..

a video on beirut in the last week.. it is super depressing and super graphic.. so if you do click on the link below.. it's with that warning in mind..

http://beirut.azhari.us/

in addition.. here's another link to a friend's website that is currently in Lebanon.. she is writing from the heart.. as you will notice.. and the least i can do.. is link you to her thoughts..

http://www.beirutupdate.blogspot.com/

what a nightmare.. nounou :(

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

a day in the life of..

a swedish national living in Lebanon.. link below:

http://www.beirutundersiege.blogspot.com/

such a shame... really.. and in all honesty.. i don't see an end in sight.. i'd love to be proven wrong though..

me

Sunday, July 16, 2006

in the words of Robert Fisk..

Prime Minister Fouad Siniora spoke earlier of "the gates of hell opening over Lebanon".. as a Lebanese citizen, i completely agree.. what's happening my country is an outrage.. a travesty, a tragedy.. below are the words of Robert Fisk.. a British national that has been covering the Middle East for over 20 years..

Robert Fisk:

What I see in Lebanon each day is an outrage

The beautiful viaduct that soars over the mountainside here has becomea "terrorist" target. The Israelis attacked the international highway from Beirut to Damascus just after dawn yesterday and dropped a bomb clean through the central span of the Italian-built bridge a symbol ofLebanon's co-operation with the European Union sending concrete crashing hundreds of feet down into the valley beneath. It was the pride of the murdered ex-prime minister Rafik Hariri, the face of anew, emergent Lebanon. And now it is a "terrorist" target. So I drove gingerly along the old mountain road towards the Bekaa yesterday - the Israeli jets were hissing through the sky above me - turned the corner once I rejoined the highway, and found a 50ft crater with an old woman climbing wearily down the side on her hands and knees, trying to reach her home in the valley that glimmered to the east. This too had become a "terrorist" target. It is now the same all over Lebanon. In the southern suburbs - where the Hizbollah, captors of the two missing Israeli soldiers, have their headquarters - a massive bomb had blasted off the sides of apartment blocks next to a church, splintering windows and crashing balconies down to parked cars. This too had become a "terrorist" target. One man was brought out shrieking with pain, covered in blood. Another "terrorist" target. All the way to the airport were broken bridges,holed roads. All these were "terrorist" targets. At the airport,tongues of fire blossomed into the sky from aircraft fuel storage tanks, darkening west Beirut. These too were now "terrorist" targets. At Jiyeh, the Israelis attacked the power station. This too was a"terrorist" target. Yet when I drove to the actual headquarters of Hizbollah, a tall building in Haret Hreik, it was totally undamaged. Only last night did the Israelis manage to hit it.

So can the Lebanese be forgiven - can anyone here be forgiven - for believing that the Israelis have a greater interest in destroying Lebanon than they do in their two soldiers?No wonder Middle East Airlines, the national Lebanese airline, put crews into its four stranded Airbuses at Beirut airport early yesterday and sneaked them out of the country for Amman before the Israelis realised they were under power and leaving. European politicians have talked about Israel's "disproportionate"response to Wednesday's capture of its soldiers. They are wrong. What I am now watching in Lebanon is an outrage. How can there be any excuse for the 73 dead Lebanese blown these past three days? The same applies, of course, to the four Israeli civilians killed byHizbollah rockets. But - please note the exchange rate of Israeli civilian lives to Lebanese civilian lives now stands at 1 to more than 15. This does not include the two children who were atomised in their home in Dweir on Thursday and whose bodies cannot be found. Their six brothers and sisters were buried yesterday, along with their mother and father. Another "terrorist" target. So was a neighbouring family with five children who were also buried yesterday. Another "terrorist"target.

Terrorist, terrorist, terrorist. There is something perverse about all this, the slaughter and massive destruction and the self-righteous,constant, cancerous use of the word "terrorist". No, let us not forgetthat the Hizbollah broke international law, crossed the Israeli border, killed three Israeli soldiers, captured two others and dragged them back through the border fence. It was an act of calculated ruthlessness that should never allow Hizbollah leader, Hassan Nasrallah, to grin so broadly at his press conference. It has brought unparalleled tragedy to countless innocents in Lebanon. And of course,it has led Hizbollah to fire at least 170 Katyusha rockets intoIsrael. But what would happen if the powerless Lebanese government had actually unleashed air attacks across Israel the last time Israel's troops crossed into Lebanon? What if the Lebanese air force then killed 73 Israeli civilians in bombing raids in Ashkelon, Tel Aviv and Israeli West Jerusalem? What if a Lebanese fighter aircraft bombed Ben Gurion airport? What if a Lebanese plane destroyed 26 road bridges across Israel? Would it not be called "terrorism"? I rather think it would. But if Israel was the victim, it would also probably be World War Three.Of course, Lebanon cannot attack Tel Aviv. Its air force comprises three ancient Hawker Hunters and an equally ancient fleet of Vietnam-era Huey helicopters. Syria, however, has missiles that can reach Tel Aviv. So Syria - which Israel rightly believes to be behind Wednesday's Hizbollah attack is not going to be bombed. It is Lebanon which must be punished.The Israeli leadership intends to "break" the Hizbollah and destroy its "terrorist cancer". Really? Do the Israelis really believe they can "break" one of the toughest guerrilla armies in the world? And how?

There are real issues here. Under UN Security Council Resolution 1559- the same resolution that got the Syrian army out of Lebanon - the Shia Muslim Hizbollah should have been disarmed. They were not because, if the Lebanese Prime Minister, Fouad Siniora, had tried to do so, the Lebanese army would have had to fight them and the army would almost certainly broken apart because most Lebanese soldiers are Shia Muslims. We could see the restarting of the civil war in Lebanon- a fact which Nasrallah is cynically aware of - but attempts bySiniora and his cabinet colleagues to find a new role for Hizbollah,which has a minister in the government (he is Minister of Labour) foundered. And the greatest fear now is that the Lebanese government will collapse and be replaced by a pro-Syrian government which could re-invite the Syrians back into the country. So there's a real conundrum to be solved. But it's not going to succeed with the mass bombing of the country by Israel. Not the obsession with terrorists, terrorists, terrorists.

Thank you Robert Fisk.. for seeing it through Lebanon's eyes..

nounou

Friday, July 14, 2006

not again..

ok.. so i've been quiet for the last few days.. it's funny how a few weeks ago, my visa was the biggest problem in the world.. now that it's been solved.. on to the next one.. a MUCH bigger one..

i'm sure that most of you already know this.. but for those of you that don't.. i am lebanese.. 100%.. ok, i didn't spend a huge part of my life there.. but my entire extended family is there.. and if you are reading this and have no clue why i am talking about lebanon.. then seriously.. you should be reading better things than this blog.. basically.. israel threatened to take lebanon back 30 years.. and with all the bombing they've been doing.. it looks like they will accomplish that..

i am not going to get all political here.. you can check out news sites for that (www.bbc.co.uk or www.reuters.com or www.dailystar.com.lb (lebanese news) or www.haaretz.com (israeli news). but what i am going to talk about here.. is what a shame this all is.. and what a waste.. seriously, it's sad when a small part of the country's population imposes this on the rest.. how unfair is that? yeah, i know the world's not a fair place.. but come on now.. why did they hit the airport.. why did they hit every road out of the country.. why are they holding innocent people hostage?? the sad answer is simple.. just because they can. unfortunately, the countries that have all the power in the world to interfere, to say something.. have decided to keep quiet.. it's funny how the higher oil prices get.. the quieter the u.s. administration gets.. i guess when you're making money it doesn't really matter that over 65 civilians have been killed in less than 48 hours.. it's the dollar that counts.. nothing else.. shame on you..

nauseous..
nounou for peace in my Lebanon

Sunday, July 09, 2006

just because i have to..

hey y'all.. ok.. on this blog, i have a few regular readers.. most of which i consider related to me in some way.. you know who you are.. and pinky and the kid.. though we may not be "blood"... y'all are my peeps anyways :)

anyway.. one of the regular readers here is this guy named alex.. the italian i wrote about a few months ago.. and the reason i mention him now is because his team just won the world cup.. so this is my form of congratulations.. i have to say that i was cheering for the french.. (for no real reason, just because).. but after zidane's foul play.. i cheered a bit for italy.. and people.. that luca toni (#9) is nice on the eyes.. so that helped :)

so.. alex.. congrats.. i won't be saying those words to you for another 12 years (maybe).. for everyone else.. statistics say that italy makes it to the final of the world cup every 12 years.. not that they necessarily win.. but they make it..

till the next time!
nounou :)

Friday, July 07, 2006

a day in the life of..

someone that's been APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!! Woohooooooooooooo.. yeah, can you tell i'm excited?? Because i soooooooooo am.. ok.. i can't write.. but that's my major update for y'all.. LA.. here i come.. well.. ok.. not really really soon.. but soon enough :)

loving my lawyer..
me :)

Thursday, July 06, 2006

look into my crystal ball..

even though i'm here in mexico, i'm still working.. i do what needs to be done.. some days it takes me 4 or 5 hours.. other days, i work for a few minutes.. but you know what.. whether i'm here or there.. it would be the same.. so i'm working from here..

to keep myself busy, i've started going to the gym.. dragging my mama along.. someone who's NEVER been to the gym.. but i have to say.. she's doing well.. we already have a 50% improvement from yesterday.. and that's good enough for me.. we plan on being able to see some results by the end of the month.. wish us luck :)

other than that, a few days ago.. since i am so impatient and basically am looking for ANY excuse to ask others about what they think is going to happen with my paperwork.. i went to a fortune-teller.. oh yes.. you read correctly.. that's where i went.. and let me just say that i like going.. only because i like to hear what they have to say.. if i like what i hear.. i will choose to believe it.. if not, then i can just shrug it off and be all.. what do they know anyway?? :)

i am going to write some of the things that she told me.. if only to have a record of the "reading".. so here it goes..
1. i will hear something regarding my paperwork situation before tuesday july 19th..
2. i will be moving back to los angeles.. it might take longer than i thought, but i will be moving back..
3. my brofo will get a raise soon
4. my dad will get lots of recognition and praise on his trip to lebanon this summer
5. my mom is lucky.. in many ways
6. my friends are very important to me even though i don't always show them (hmm??)
7. southern comfort is a "good" guy..
8. i'm a "good" person..
9. even with us both being "good".. according to her.. sc and i have NO clue what we want regarding each other, it's all up in the air.. and nothing is concrete
10. i need to think before i act since it seems i am impulsive (couldn't disagree more)
11. my job is stable and constant.. no major changes there (lucky me, no?)
12. i am surrounded by envy it seems.. i don't believe that one either.. but for those of you that sometimes feel tired.. and just blah and have no energy.. here's the cure.. take three eggs and a glass of water... run the eggs over your body from head to toe.. and then open them into the water-filled glass.. once the 3 eggs are open.. pour a bit of clorox in.. and you are cleansed.. of course, i haven't tried this myself.. but that's what the word is on the "tarot scene" :)

Those are the things i remember right now.. i can't say that i was super impressed with the reading.. it was a bit vague, i think... but there are some parts that i am leaving out.. you know.. can't have everything out in the open.. i will keep y'all posted if any of the above.. or anything else.. comes true in the next few weeks / months.

not really believing it.. (this time)
nounou :)

Saturday, July 01, 2006

almost a week..

hey y'all.. so i got here almost a week ago.. considering that i'm writing this out on a sat. night, let's just pretend that it's monday and then we'll be at 6 days.. :) so what can i say about being here? well, one thing's for sure.. it never changes.. i swear, it's like i come here and i get back into my routine which basically consists of sleeping super late.. and waking up semi-early.. and then doing nothing throughout the day.. there are some differences this time around though.. i'm actually working from here.. so that takes up a few hours of my day.. which is always a good thing! :)

the other difference is that my core group of hang out friends.. isn't here anymore :( while i was living down here, there were a bunch of people that i'd basically be guaranteed to hang out with at any time.. and even the last year and a half that i haven't been living here, everytime i'd come down here for weekends, i'd still have that group of people.. and now, they've left.. one went back home to Peru where she's from.. another went back to Argentina.. where he's from.. one moved to Cincinatti for work.. one has a girlfriend that takes.. literally.. 1000000% of his time.. so all of them.. are not around.. there are still some other people i could hang out with.. but you know, it's that whole effort that you have to make.. it's not one of those friends that you can just chill with.. you know.. not make conversation because being quiet is weird.. but i can't complain TOO much.. there are still a few people around.. one of which is my closest friend here.. so that's good at least.. and did i mention that she's not working right now? yeah.. so basically we have all the time in the world to hang out.. considering our schedules.. she's actually interviewing and will be hearing back from a company next week.. so i wish her the best of luck :)

what else?? hmm.. i guess all's well.. i'm in contact with my peeps across the border and they all seem to be doing well enough.. i was going to get some potential visitors (pinky and southern comfort) for an acapulco trip but that didn't up working out.. so we'll see if something else comes up..

next week i go back to the gym.. being a lazy ass is only good for so long.. so time to get back to it.. and then the week after that, i could be hearing back from the ins.. and then i can breathe.. either way.. it's the worst thing not knowing..

waiting.. "patiently"
nounou :)

oh yeah.. how crazy is this whole world cup thing turning out?? italy vs. germany and then portugal vs. france.. i don't love any of the teams left.. but i will be rooting for germany.. it's being played in their country.. and i spent 5 years of my life there.. so that's who i'm going with :) (sorry alex!)